Auuuuuummmmmm (at Downward Dog Yoga Centre)
Project No. 1. Got a feel for the medium (acrylic paints), colours and technique by painting to what I felt listening to music. Very fun.
I started experimenting with painting today. I’ve had the desire to paint for awhile now and finally got some basic supplies this week.
I haven’t painted since I was a kid and I gave up on art in high school because I wasn’t “good” at it.
My creative impulses have been beating stronger and stronger over the last few weeks. I’ve always been a writer but painting appeals to me because it doesn’t have to “make sense.” And sometimes I want to create without having to make sense of things.
For my first project, I put on some good music and painted to the feel of the music, which was very fun. The “painting” is just a jumble of colours but I like seeing the paint change and transform on the paper and as it dries.
For my second project, I tried to copy a beach photo because I want to hang it in my bathroom, which has a beach theme happening. Painting realistically is not easy. But that’s okay because in trying to copy, I got these great colour mixes happening between blues, green and white.
So far, I’m loving this experiment. It keeps me in the moment and is an easy way for me to express my creative energy. I’m also using it as an opportunity to mellow out my perfectionism. I think I gave up on art when I was young because nothing ever turned out the way I imagined it in my head. Now that I’m older, I can let go of my huge ego and just enjoy myself.
B.K.S. Iyengar (1918-), yoga teacher, “Light on Life”
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been driven by a desire for inner peace. Anything and everything I’ve tried or faked or failed at or accomplished so far has been in attempt to find peace.
Today, I realized I’m no longer “looking” for this inner peace. I am now practicing it. I have many tools to draw from to practice it but the one that has profoundly transformed my life is surrender to and trust of the natural order of the universe.
And with inner peace comes the new desire to practice genuine compassion for all sentient beings.
I did not ever think I would get here. And I got here in the most unexpected of ways.